I reflect on timeless and the meaning of life. Maybe I start with me, but it's not just about me, but everyone else.
Here, I keep shells that I've gathered from the Beach...
I did not know that Carl Jung said about life that begins at 40. Good to know because I was tempted to believe that it was more of a personal experience. When I entered my 40s, I felt something remarkable about this age, something that signaled newness. A more open stage, where things that had been in a sort of haze, became clear. Clarity brought immense freedom like I did not experience before. Freedom from anything that would keep me stuck in an idea that was not totally internalized, understood, or honestly dealt with. Freedom is an outset. Why people talk about getting old at 40? It is a new life that begins here, maybe a new form of childhood. When you are rediscovering everything without the typical child-like clumsiness, hesitation, or ambiguity. It is a stage where known feelings are elevated through a form of consciousness that gives a sense of freedom. It feels like a new self, and yet... the same soul; rejuvenating like a new set of clo...
Why do I believe in God? Because life I know seems meaningless without it. My choice, in a way... I am not satisfied with the way life goes. I want to reach beyond it, and God is the only way through which I see myself going farther. I do not want, neither need, exhaustive evidence about God's existence. That would no longer be faith . Even the Bible defines faith as a belief in things unseen, --or to extrapolate-- understood. There you go then... belief in unbelievable. I got used with a form of mystery to the point of liking it. To the point of becoming a state of being. Living on a glimpse... To swing on some airy spider lines. Elusive, they are actually tremendously resilient...
Before I paint a landscape, I feel the landscape. I am not a desert person, no doubt about it. However, that's on my plate right now-- sand, cacti, yellow, dry air... I would not have known what dry air is till I went beyond the end of the desert and felt the humid air. Sometimes back and forth, comparing and contrasting, in time. I understood then why people reacted so fussily in regards to the type of air. Most of them like dry air, and loathe the humid one. But I feel that dry air is no feel at all, while it's still harsh on the skin. The sun is scorching in the desert and you miss the breath of the foliage. If the sun is not hurting you, then the dusty wind will... Because its vegetation is scarce, the desert lets you see far and beyond. So, a perception of the vastness of the land kicks in. You feel yourself so small. This is not necessarily bad because it's true. In the desert the landscape is hazy and it helps you ...
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