Anticipare_Copil 2

    Ma trezesc cu copilăria in nări, in urechi, in priviri oarbe. Intra pe geam nevazuta... Ii vad pe toți ai ei ca niște stâlpi mișcători ce muta lucrurile de colo colo, in jurul meu. Copil fiind si fără nicio grija, mă trezeam in forfota grădinii, in chiotul curții, când treburile erau in toi sau deja facute. Le-au făcut si au plecat... Mă trezesc dimineața ca un om responsabil ce știe ce are de făcut si nu mai poate cloci in pat cu vise. Continui treburile într-o liniște totală, resemnata...

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