Dislocation

Sunday Baroque 89.7 FM. 

Driving far. 

My views are unobstructed: no trees, no human dwellings, just earth and sky. 

I tend to speed. 

I almost feel the car can lift itself from the concrete road and go above everything, defying forces that would keep it down. 

Like my thoughts which are drifting away from the familiar and well behaved, into uncharted, even forbidden... 

To become wild and rogue...

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