Time lapse


    In my fugitive journey through here, I pondered a bit on the way time perception shifts our views. We always seem to wonder what is going to happen next, or when this or that may come to be. Some things  appear harder to achieve, but if we set a generous amount of time, they become more tangible. In a huge length of time things may float neurotically,  and we might be overwhelmed and numbed; but we relax eventually at the notion that in such time the probability for them becoming reality is higher, even though we still have no clue about how would that be. For the sake of time, perhaps, we are more inclined to  accept as possibility even a strange scenario from deep past. 

    When I was in my early 20s, I often questioned my own life-- where was I going to be, when was I going to get married (a big one), if I would ever have kids, if I would ever see such and such place, and so on. If I would have assessed the coming year, or two, or three, the chances were very feeble for such events to occur; but if I would have set the bar to 10 or 20 years, the likelihood for such things to come to pass would have increased considerably in my mind, without any known plan. 

    Time outside of our life span is pretty much unknown, although we have reference about the past through history and science. The past serves as a model sometimes--that if something took place yesterday, it may spring up in the future as well. But distant time still imbues us with a certain power of make-believe. We are mesmerized by its haze and think that somehow, some things can develop in the mysterious concoctions of time.

    What if I apply the same reasoning to the idea of evolution? To something that extends beyond my own  time...So, we do not usually believe that a well defined object would fall one day from the sky because somehow all the necessary conditions for it to exist would be fulfilled spontaneously, through a certain play of events. No, somebody must have made it, we say. But we add the time factor. In billions and millions of years, our perception changes, and  Big Bang is possible. The tremendous amount of time is mind blowing and we stop analyzing; a fish comes to existence in the depths of water, and slowly transforms in a land creature, and from it a whole cycle of land creatures would take us to a human. In this case, there is no need to ask where are we coming from...But we still do...


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