Dark and Light

    Who would have thought...? In a day when nothing seemed out of the ordinary... To slip through a hole like Alice in Wonderland... But for me it was no Wonderland, but a dark world where people suffer, cannot do normal activities, they are in pain and cry for help, where disease and death are looming. I mean... I vicariously knew how hard it was for sick people to deal with life, but I got more than ever to feel it myself, to have it... to know it first hand...

    A simple accident while showering, overzealously polishing my heel. A sharp pain on the side, then loss of ability to move. Excruciating pain, and crawling like a creature of the earth. A few hours like that, then hardly moving. A muscle strain. Rest, ice, oils helped. Better everyday, then coming back home through the same hole... Running like a deer again.

    Happy as if life it's not simply granted, but it's a miracle...

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  1. David December 23, 2023 at 8:05 AM

    Asa simt si eu dupa orice disconfort, cand imi revin la forma mea. Aproape ca uit starea asta de bine. Chestia e ca sunt si receptiv la fiecare semnal la indicii, ceea ce ma face putin obsesiv. Ma gandesc, cum e sa traiesti fara sa fii constient de corpul tau. O fi bine, o fi mai simplu?

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    1. cara forestieriDecember 23, 2023 at 1:13 PM

      Si eu sunt sensibila la lucruri ce tin de corp, atenta la indiciile pe care mi le da. Nu sunt genul care sa o duca asa cu probleme. Trebuie sa rezolv cat de repede. Eu zic ca o constienta e buna, corpul e parte din noi, doar sa nu devina peste masura.

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    2. David December 24, 2023 at 12:32 AM

      Daca nu devi ipohondru. Mai am si extreme din astea mostenite de la mama. :))

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    3. cara forestieriDecember 24, 2023 at 6:13 PM

      Si eu am avut genul asta de "mosteniri." De fapt niste comportamente vazute si preluate. Dar la un moment dat am fost prea constienta de asta si am schimbat. Nu sunt chiar batute in cuie...

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  2. David December 23, 2023 at 8:06 AM

    P.S. Craciun Fericit! si fara disconfort.

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    1. cara forestieriDecember 23, 2023 at 1:22 PM

      Multumesc, e fericit, si tie la fel!
      Ma bucur sa vad din nou emblema ta. Un mic cadou:))

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  3. David December 24, 2023 at 12:31 AM

    Emblema mea, e din cauza ca mi s-a dus MacBook-ul si a trebuit sa cumparu un laptop cu Windows. Curios e ca nu mai pot sa comentez de pe telefon. haha

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